concrete . jungle

Concrete and jungle do not mix.

Me: concrete.

You: jungle

This is our reconciliation.

Concrete. Typical big city kind of person, ‘plays around’ in buildings - malls. Care nothing about the nature. Let alone hiking or camping, tracking was never been in mind. Living a life as it is, rigid. Adventure?  Hahaha well.. let’s just say the word is widely defined.

Supermarkets instead of traditional markets. Mini markets instead of ‘warung’. Restaurants instead of sideways food stalls. Coke instead of lemonade. Brands instead of function. Clubs instead of coffee shops.  Cinemas instead of local plays. Cars instead of public transportations.

Jungle.  Free, no strings. The sky is the limit. Loving the nature, and most of activities related to it. Hiking, tracking, mountain climbing, swimming in the pond, it’s the air that you breathe. Life is an adventure.  

The sun, the moon, and the stars instead of light bulbs. Ponds instead of swimming pool. The nature is your gym.

Concrete and jungle do not mix. And you have no idea about me.

Hendy.

Besar. Tinggi. Ga banyak omong. Gahar. Ga banyak lah yang mau macem-macem sama dia. bekingan-nya juga nggak maen-maen. Bisa bikin anak orang babak belur tanpa bekas dengan bersih. Seneng nongkrong, walau yaa gitulah..ga jauh2 dari si al dan si jey. Shadesh ya? He's not the kinda guy you wanna mess with. Trust me.
 
Tapi... on the other side, dia sama aja seperti anak-anak kebanyakan. Kerja keras buat menghidupi keluarganya. Tanggung jawab banget sama kerjaan. As in, dia ga pernah ninggalin anak buahnya tanpa bimbingan, sendirian. Walaupun dia ga bareng anak buahnya, semuanya bisa menghubungi dia kapan aja urusan kerjaan. Ngurus ijin ina ini anu ke instansi pemerintah pun dia jabanin sendiri. Kadang ngedumel juga, tapi ga banyak.

Kalo buat urusan keluarga, well...laki-laki. Punya isu juga lah ya, punya masalah rumah tangga. Yang ini setelah nikah dia ga banyak share, dan memang bukan kapasitas gue juga sih ya buat tau banyak. Despite apapun masalah yang dia hadapin, dia bertanggung jawab penuh sama keluarganya. Dia penuhi kebutuhan keluarganya. Dia selalu ada buat anaknya. Tegas sebagai kepala keluarga. Dia.. laki-laki. Pengalaman pait tentang ayahnya ngebuat dia 100% ga mau keluarganya ngerasain apa yang dulu dia rasain. Hidup emang harus bekerja, harus berjuang.

Gue belajar banyak dari dia. Life's not a fairytale. Harus kerja, harus berjuang. Kenikmatan-kenikmatan itu hanya 'bonus'. Do the best you can, totalitas dalam segala hal. Bekerja, berusaha, ..dalam.. hidup. Masalah akan selalu ada, dimanapun, kapanpun. Acapkali not in the right moment. But see, that's life. It ain't perfect, but that's the beauty of it. Do the best you can, remember God, treat women well.

Yes ndut, you taught me more that you realized... thanks buds... :)

friends.

I haven't had a lot to say about my friends. Few are mentioned, but there's actually more. So for some reasons, I decided that I will share some of my friends. Letting you guys to get to know them better. Up close and personal. I am grateful to have them around, because no matter how tough life have become, they're just rather. In and out, above and beyond. At that time, you could say..

"well, it's bearable..breaking down once in a while is fine..but it's bearable.." 

so, enjoy getting to know these wonderful people. I know you will, coz I do.. I always do.. :)

so this is it..

it's not easy, but if it's meant to be, we'll find our way back. In the mean time, let's just leave it as good as it is.

As much as we could blame each other, I prefer to keep it as 'lessons learned'

hey you..

i miss our long convo..hey you..

2012. Rough One.

I was expecting 2012 to be better, nicer than 2011. I had everything falls in its place in 2011. Perfect. Beautiful.

Passing 1st quarter, I already got a lot of bitterness to say. Full of uncertainty, in all the way.

First, my job. They got me transferred to KL, fully in charge for Indonesia. Proud? Yes. Who else? It's gotta be the single one. The interview went well; the bargaining is a bit hard and still below my expectation; the permit got rejected. I'm still buying my time to find other opportunities instead of being transferred. I'm sorry to say, but KL is not the kind of city I love to live in. However, if I have to, then I have to. I got no say at all. I tried to be calm, I do. It's not easy. Somehow there's a part of you that always do the thinking although you're in a holiday mode, weekend mode, whatever. It keeps on thinking.

Second, well.. 'you know who' is back on track at work and being super busy that I find myself drifted apart. I'm not going to push it, not again. I'm too tired of trying (not with this one, but with the previous one), all I want is to work it out together. A quarter of analyzing is enough to say that it's going down the drain. But I guess I'm fine, I'm alright. This one is easier than the last one. It's too bad we can't make it through, but there's a lot of things going on. Nobody's fault, it's just -again- we don't have enough time to spend together which leads to communication problem and so on. If we're meant to be, we'll find our way one day. Or maybe I didn't give a lot of thinking about seperating because the energy spent on thinking about career is just too much.

Third, about friends, i'm re-connecting with those in the past. Nicely built, I had fun re-connecting. Uni guys are doing great, instead they tried to refer me to several opportunities. Guys in the hood are also doing great, Kari got accepted in the company he wants as a permanent employee. As usual, on weekends we like to hang out just to talk over coffee cups. However, some also... left. Some find other interest, most are in money and lifestyle. Both doesn't interest me at all. I guess I'm not responding to them either.. Everything changes.. yeah it always do..

Owh yes... the story is not yet ended...still got 3 more quarters to tell... let's see what else is here.. no matter what happens, always be grateful.. as Mr Cole said..

Smile though your heart is aching
Smile even though it's breaking
When there are clouds in the sky
You'll get by....

Drew - Setengah Mati

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