2012. Rough One.

I was expecting 2012 to be better, nicer than 2011. I had everything falls in its place in 2011. Perfect. Beautiful.

Passing 1st quarter, I already got a lot of bitterness to say. Full of uncertainty, in all the way.

First, my job. They got me transferred to KL, fully in charge for Indonesia. Proud? Yes. Who else? It's gotta be the single one. The interview went well; the bargaining is a bit hard and still below my expectation; the permit got rejected. I'm still buying my time to find other opportunities instead of being transferred. I'm sorry to say, but KL is not the kind of city I love to live in. However, if I have to, then I have to. I got no say at all. I tried to be calm, I do. It's not easy. Somehow there's a part of you that always do the thinking although you're in a holiday mode, weekend mode, whatever. It keeps on thinking.

Second, well.. 'you know who' is back on track at work and being super busy that I find myself drifted apart. I'm not going to push it, not again. I'm too tired of trying (not with this one, but with the previous one), all I want is to work it out together. A quarter of analyzing is enough to say that it's going down the drain. But I guess I'm fine, I'm alright. This one is easier than the last one. It's too bad we can't make it through, but there's a lot of things going on. Nobody's fault, it's just -again- we don't have enough time to spend together which leads to communication problem and so on. If we're meant to be, we'll find our way one day. Or maybe I didn't give a lot of thinking about seperating because the energy spent on thinking about career is just too much.

Third, about friends, i'm re-connecting with those in the past. Nicely built, I had fun re-connecting. Uni guys are doing great, instead they tried to refer me to several opportunities. Guys in the hood are also doing great, Kari got accepted in the company he wants as a permanent employee. As usual, on weekends we like to hang out just to talk over coffee cups. However, some also... left. Some find other interest, most are in money and lifestyle. Both doesn't interest me at all. I guess I'm not responding to them either.. Everything changes.. yeah it always do..

Owh yes... the story is not yet ended...still got 3 more quarters to tell... let's see what else is here.. no matter what happens, always be grateful.. as Mr Cole said..

Smile though your heart is aching
Smile even though it's breaking
When there are clouds in the sky
You'll get by....